Lately, I have just been so disgusted with myself at how quickly I can quench the Holy Spirit's work in my life. I will be worshiping in my car on the way home from work, singing "break my heart for what breaks Yours" and guenuinely mean it, then 20 minutes later I snap at a family member for something stupid. Seriously?
I find myself begging the Lord to give me opportunities to love His people and to point them to their Creator, then I spend all of my time on things that will pass away.
I feel like I just can't do this abundant life thing, even though I have actually experienced it. I can't seem to REMAIN.
Ever since I got back from camp in August I have been meditating on this passage. It has been a familiar passage to me for years now, but it has really come alive these past couple of months.
Psalm 73:24-28
"You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.
Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.
Those who are far from you will perish;
you destroy all who are unfaithful to you.
But as for me, it is good to be near God.
I have made the Sovereign Lord my refuge;
I will tell of all your deeds. "
He is ALL that I need. I WILL tell of His deeds! I'm trading everything that I think I need or just want, for the ONE things that will satisfy. My cry to the Lord is that it my desire will be only for Him, that I will need Him so desparately that it hurts when I'm not close to Him.
That's all.
I find myself begging the Lord to give me opportunities to love His people and to point them to their Creator, then I spend all of my time on things that will pass away.
I feel like I just can't do this abundant life thing, even though I have actually experienced it. I can't seem to REMAIN.
Ever since I got back from camp in August I have been meditating on this passage. It has been a familiar passage to me for years now, but it has really come alive these past couple of months.
Psalm 73:24-28
"You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.
Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.
Those who are far from you will perish;
you destroy all who are unfaithful to you.
But as for me, it is good to be near God.
I have made the Sovereign Lord my refuge;
I will tell of all your deeds. "
He is ALL that I need. I WILL tell of His deeds! I'm trading everything that I think I need or just want, for the ONE things that will satisfy. My cry to the Lord is that it my desire will be only for Him, that I will need Him so desparately that it hurts when I'm not close to Him.
That's all.
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